I am tired! I am true of heart! You are tired! You are true of heart!

October 2004. A freezing, dark, night in an unfamiliar city at the top of the earth. I cried under the weight of what felt like the heaviest stuffs of the intangible world.  To myself.  to the emptiness. To God. and then I read this. I clung to this:

"You hem me in--behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me.  Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.

Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there, if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast."

Psalm 139:5-10


Sept 2007. A gray, damp, chilly city at the edge of the sea. The smell of fish and the teasing hints of spring. An alien in a foreign land wherever I go. I cry under what feels like a similar weight. Different but the same. To myself. To the emptiness. To God. And then a friend mentions this. The liturgical calendar falls on this.  Brian chooses this for our community meditation: 

"You hem me in--behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me.  Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.

Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there, if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast."

Psalm 139:5-10


and God's faithfulness is more true to me than ever before.